Ladykiller

You blamed your lewd acts on society and pornography,
claiming 'not guilty' until your bitter, dirty, tragic end.
Illegitimate child -- probably the product of incest.
You psychoanalyzed yourself and came up with no answer.
"Why? How could he have done those things?!" Those evil, derelict deeds.
You smiled, shrugged your shoulders, reminiscing about the stark gore,
the girls, the crowbar, the chase, the murders, the rapes and the blood.
The blood -- you wanted to bathe in it, wash yourself clean with it,
your past, your history, wishing to be a star, deity.
You renounced God and humanity, creating effigies
from burned and battered flesh, from the remains of true innocence.
Your will, your choosing, your destiny -- a self-made man; monster.
In your final hour you accepted Jesus Christ, your savior.
The Governor of Florida, your real God, turned a deaf ear,
as your sister-mother wept for you, her son, her little boy.
The world sighed relief as you left, then went on with its business.
Just a flicker, after all, a meaningless flicker in time.